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This an attempt to honour Kipling's 'If' (with my own twist of course)

To help your fellow man because it brings him ease and joy,
to smile at a cleaning lady and say thank you to acknowledge her sublime station,
to tell a friend you are grateful to have him as a friend for the sake of saying it out loud,
to listen to your parents because they are responsible for the becoming of you,
to wake up each morning and feel blessed to have another chance at helping better this world,
to take in loud voices and unsettled minds because you can and because they need but not want,
to find that the only way to my happiness is when I see yours,
to know that what I do or say DOES make a difference,
to make ends meet and know that's all you need,
to read the news and find reason to live to persist, not exist,
to eat like yesterday's was enough and today's enough for another,
to look at someone and feel them not see them for who they are,
to speak as if words are not enough as deeds replace,
to know your purpose in life, and to strive to know if you don't,
to say thank you to God, family and friends, strangers and enemies, because they deserve it,
to stand up in what you believe in and remain..for nothing less,
to read this poem not to be a fan but to take all that you can.

Where was I?

I think I was suppose to let my dear readers know what I find to be the meaning of my life...

I find meaning when things are not routine,
I find meaning when days don't just pass by,
I find meaning when each moment is worth living,
I find meaning when I've learnt the will to fly.

Still seems a little vague eh?...well that's what poetry usually does, shortened and sweetened things..

Just the other day as I was walking back to my residential college, I started thinking about how routine a life of a varsity student is. That you attend classes, participate in college activities to either stay in or just for the experience and mix around. My residential college supplies food at certain times of the day, hence all the students will eat at the same time. What perplexes me the most, is how everyone can do that for an entire semester. Maybe there is spontaneity in their daily routines when some big activities are up. It's like a drug shot, you take a hit and it will last you for a few moments, only thing here is that a shot here will last you to the next one (which is not too far away). Quite a system I see has been inculcated to make the varsity student life a little worth living. For me, there's no meaning to it, if there's no high purpose to it.

Often times, my seniors ask me why am I so busy since I do not participate in much college activities and they ask whether my coursework is so loadful. I say no and explain that I'm involved in social programmes outside of the university. And that's where I find my purpose and meaning in life..

The other day I was having a chat with my working friend and he said its usual for almost every individual to go through that phase in life, where one questions his purpose or just simply put, his priorities.

Mine lie in striving to make this world a better place. Sounds cheesy eh? Well, the difference between the beauty pageant queen and workers for a cause, is that the latter have an entire framework of action to abide by. But so complicating right? When you can look to the end of things, it can be as simple as saying, "Hi, how's your day? Let me buy you a cup of coffee and you can tell me all about it. =)".

I'm very grateful to have come across this framework of action and rest assured I did not come up with it by myself or was it just conceptualized by some guru who sat isolated at the top of a mountain. It came from years of learning and experience in social and spiritual development of communities and I for one truly believe it is the remedy for what humanity is going through today.

Hmm, looks like I've become too verbose again, perhaps this framework of action i believe in shall come in the next post...

Have a great day ahead guys!

It's been a while, and time to reconcile...

So since I've taken such a long time to post here, I've got to get back to my rhythm of penning down my 'lightbulb' moments or lessons in life.

Therefore, I shall just be writing this post from whatever it is that comes off the top of my head just to get into groove again.

I've caught a flu these past few days and it really has impaired me from being me so to speak. Today my lecturer (YES, I'm in UNI now!..that's how long I have not posted here) asked me to present one of my written assignments in class today...impromptu!...Apparently mine was one of the few worth mentioning to him and the others, so happen that their authors were absent, so I was the only one available...and I think he kinda likes me because I not as withdrawn as the other students...hehe. but that's another story altogether.

So up I went to present, though I presented something totally different and was not too satisfied with myself because of the lack of preparation and my voice not sounding fluent (maybe not even coherent?). But of course the lecturer appreciated it and my coursemates clapped because it's a pretty big deal for someone in my course to present in class which I think is real sad.

Then I started thinking to myself, why am I not captivating when giving a presentation?...then I remembered what my girlfriend said to me some time back...qouting off someone else...

"Every master was once a disaster"

Cool quote but you just got to hate the truthfullness of it eh? So when am I get going on my way to become a master? Because I do see myself with things to tell and I do have a way with words but it doesn't come out just as nice in my speech as in my writing. Maybe it's in the tone, facial expression and overall facade or manner?...I hope to start rectifying any of this soon as possible, it will do wonders to my confidence, though I think that doesn't need much boosting, maybe a little toning down though..hehe

But all in all, all these thought provoking thought trains has made me feel that life is worth living, that life is worth exploring,worth venturing, an adventure you make it to be.

Earlier today also I was telling one of my coursemates my other plans to make money while I am studying and gaining working experience in the related field as well, she was impressed but I just said that I have to do it, because studying for 4 years straight is a bit of a drag to me.

And lastly, what meaning is there to all this?...striving day and night, falling sick for these reasons,...are they reasons of grandeur?...how long can that make you go on?..Surely there is a real reason behind it, one worth holding on to, one worth saying it to others and more importantly...to yourself...I think I have found that meaning....

Alright guys, seems that I've got my groove back!...Tune in soon for the next post..then I shall pen down my 2 cents of the meaning I want my life to carry...

Drop a comment before you go yeah...Have a great day ahead guys...to 'lightbulb' moments as they often come and left unsung!...